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04 October 2011 @ 05:36 pm
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What a stupid question! Because ANYONE who ever at one point in their life was a victim of bullying will gladly think "Oh, gee, yes. Wait a second, who was the biggest arsehole in my life? The one that made me want to hurt - or even kill - someone/myself the most?". Yes, that's truly a great memory to have.
And it's a great idea to bring all those memories and pains up unbidden.
It's an even better idea to invite a ton of fuckwits to think up a story of how they are/were bullied because it's a contest.
No matter how great your life now might be the memories and the pain don't go away, they're just waiting in the back of your mind to come back out and nag you. Being bullied is not just a 'state of mind' that passes, it's a wound that's done to the soul.

“It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.”
― Rose Kennedy
 
 
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Depeche Mode - Wrong (Hotch/Reid fanvid)
 
 
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04 October 2011 @ 05:36 pm
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What a stupid question! Because ANYONE who ever at one point in their life was a victim of bullying will gladly think "Oh, gee, yes. Wait a second, who was the biggest arsehole in my life? The one that made me want to hurt - or even kill - someone/myself the most?". Yes, that's truly a great memory to have.
And it's a great idea to bring all those memories and pains up unbidden.
It's an even better idea to invite a ton of fuckwits to think up a story of how they are/were bullied because it's a contest.
No matter how great your life now might be the memories and the pain don't go away, they're just waiting in the back of your mind to come back out and nag you. Being bullied is not just a 'state of mind' that passes, it's a wound that's done to the soul.

“It has been said, 'time heals all wounds.' I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time, the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them with scar tissue and the pain lessens. But it is never gone.”
― Rose Kennedy
 
 
disappointed
disappointed
Depeche Mode - Wrong (Hotch/Reid fanvid)
 
 
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Ja, ich hab die Fahrprüfung mit Pauken und Trompeten vergeigt.
Jaaaa, ich kann das. Mit Percussion und Blasinstrument fiedeln.

Hab zu wenig Abstand gehalten und dann hat's den Beifahrerseitenspiegel eingeklappt.
Das dümmste aber war wohl meine Reaktion am Verkehrsübungsplatz. Steffen meinte, er fährt mich eben heim. Hab gesagt, dass ich lieber lauf und bin davongerannt.
Ich wette er hat meine Mum angerufen und ihr das kurz dargelegt, weil sie mir dann mit'm Auto entgegen kam.
Ich hab auf der TRauerfeier (genau davor) nicht so sehr geheult, wie auf dem Weg zurück zum Verkehrsübungsplatz...



Definitiv nicht neu, aber ich hab endlich "Failure" bei YouTube hochgeladen.

Failure - Unloco a Mephausto-video.

Beschreibt irgendwie grad gut, was ich so fühl.



~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~



It's not new, but I finally uploaded "Failure" to YouTube.

Failure - Unloco a Mephausto-video.

Describes my feelings very well.

"And now I feel like this was all for nothing - 'cause I'm left with nothing, I'm left with nothing again! So what if I lost everything? Would you want me if I was a failure?" ~ Unloco-failure
 
 
sick
sick
where my soul rests private hell
Unloco - Failure (video)
 
 
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Ja, ich hab die Fahrprüfung mit Pauken und Trompeten vergeigt.
Jaaaa, ich kann das. Mit Percussion und Blasinstrument fiedeln.

Hab zu wenig Abstand gehalten und dann hat's den Beifahrerseitenspiegel eingeklappt.
Das dümmste aber war wohl meine Reaktion am Verkehrsübungsplatz. Steffen meinte, er fährt mich eben heim. Hab gesagt, dass ich lieber lauf und bin davongerannt.
Ich wette er hat meine Mum angerufen und ihr das kurz dargelegt, weil sie mir dann mit'm Auto entgegen kam.
Ich hab auf der TRauerfeier (genau davor) nicht so sehr geheult, wie auf dem Weg zurück zum Verkehrsübungsplatz...



Definitiv nicht neu, aber ich hab endlich "Failure" bei YouTube hochgeladen.

Failure - Unloco a Mephausto-video.

Beschreibt irgendwie grad gut, was ich so fühl.



~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~



It's not new, but I finally uploaded "Failure" to YouTube.

Failure - Unloco a Mephausto-video.

Describes my feelings very well.

"And now I feel like this was all for nothing - 'cause I'm left with nothing, I'm left with nothing again! So what if I lost everything? Would you want me if I was a failure?" ~ Unloco-failure
 
 
sick
Unloco - Failure (video)
sick
where my soul rests private hell
 
 
möhrchen
Ja, ich hab die Fahrprüfung mit Pauken und Trompeten vergeigt.
Jaaaa, ich kann das. Mit Percussion und Blasinstrument fiedeln.

Hab zu wenig Abstand gehalten und dann hat's den Beifahrerseitenspiegel eingeklappt.
Das dümmste aber war wohl meine Reaktion am Verkehrsübungsplatz. Steffen meinte, er fährt mich eben heim. Hab gesagt, dass ich lieber lauf und bin davongerannt.
Ich wette er hat meine Mum angerufen und ihr das kurz dargelegt, weil sie mir dann mit'm Auto entgegen kam.
Ich hab auf der TRauerfeier (genau davor) nicht so sehr geheult, wie auf dem Weg zurück zum Verkehrsübungsplatz...



Definitiv nicht neu, aber ich hab endlich "Failure" bei YouTube hochgeladen.

Failure - Unloco a Mephausto-video.

Beschreibt irgendwie grad gut, was ich so fühl.



~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~



It's not new, but I finally uploaded "Failure" to YouTube.

Failure - Unloco a Mephausto-video.

Describes my feelings very well.

"And now I feel like this was all for nothing - 'cause I'm left with nothing, I'm left with nothing again! So what if I lost everything? Would you want me if I was a failure?" ~ Unloco-failure
 
 
sick
sick
where my soul rests private hell
Unloco - Failure (video)
 
 
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08 September 2006 @ 03:03 pm
Man, I don't get it.
At first I got the Peg-Con Ticket for my birthday which is about 200 bucks. Then my Mum gave me 500 bucks additionally. I thought, wow. That must include a lot of money for my quite good school report.
Now, when the Con was canceled I thought: "Okay. Mum'll get the money for the ticket, including the money for the hotel (60 bucks) I paid from my own money. It's only fair."
Hey, it's fair 'cause it's still 440 for my birthday and that is more than what I usually got at the most.
Now. Today is when it became unfair.
My sister got an E-Bass. I don't know the exact price, but I overheard my Mum saying something along the lines of at least 400 for the thing.
Great. I knew that if my sister got a D or better in Latin in her school report this semester she'd get such a thing.
BUT...
First of all she's got a F in Latin.
Second of all she's got a grade point average of about 2.7. That's not quite a +C. I've got an average not quite a +B.
Her birthday was a little more than seven months ago, or rather will be in five months. Christmas in four.
She only got a new piano teacher. She's also playing the (MY! I fucking started playing and now she's got MY instrument) violin. Now she can go and start playing a third instrument?
She's behaving like a troll most of the time! Her outfit is almost whorish, doesn't agree with her unless she loses about twenty kilos and she's only thirteen. And she's ordering things on the internet with money that isn't hers, only situated on a bank account that may be labled with her name, or even perhaps only our last name.

Let's sum it up: I got about the same amount of money for my birthday my sister got for her crappy school report?
Or rather: I got about the same amount of money for my school report as my sister who's a grades are worse than mine who for the first time in years have really improved, leaving NOTHING for my birthday?
Or rather: My sister can do WHAT she wants, play the bitch the whole fucking day and still gets what she wants?
FUCK! I'm leaving!

True, my pocket money went up 10 bucks a month. But I guess my sister'll get a similiar raise.
Of course, my driving licence costed 999 bucks so far and there can be easily another 200 coming up in that matter. But that was *planned*.
My mother saved for it for some years. There was no surprise that this would come.
The E-Bass is a total surprise.

I mailed my Dad and we had a day with intensive mail-contact. I also mentioned my plans for my computer and he replied that he was sorry and that he couldn't help me with that. There is a little problem with arranging the money for him right now because things are a bit expensive right now. I don't want to get mean, but he didn't have to adopt two more children, did he?
Anyway, I didn't expect any help from him and I got 250 bucks for my 17th birthday from him. That's okay.

For christmas my sister and I'll get the diving equipement part I so we can start in March or something. The whole equipement will cost about 400 bucks. Persistent little figure, isn't it?
Anyway, I think I'll cancel my participation.

Man, am I really the only one of the two of us trying to be at least a bit modest? I'm not talking about my sister stealing my money years ago, that's a different story. I'm talking about her not looking left and right and never thinking twice if the reward she gets suits the things she does! Or is this really only me seeing it that distorted because right now I'm in this postition?
It makes me sick!
 
 
melancholy
melancholy
Bastards of Bodom
 
 
möhrchen
08 September 2006 @ 03:03 pm
Man, I don't get it.
At first I got the Peg-Con Ticket for my birthday which is about 200 bucks. Then my Mum gave me 500 bucks additionally. I thought, wow. That must include a lot of money for my quite good school report.
Now, when the Con was canceled I thought: "Okay. Mum'll get the money for the ticket, including the money for the hotel (60 bucks) I paid from my own money. It's only fair."
Hey, it's fair 'cause it's still 440 for my birthday and that is more than what I usually got at the most.
Now. Today is when it became unfair.
My sister got an E-Bass. I don't know the exact price, but I overheard my Mum saying something along the lines of at least 400 for the thing.
Great. I knew that if my sister got a D or better in Latin in her school report this semester she'd get such a thing.
BUT...
First of all she's got a F in Latin.
Second of all she's got a grade point average of about 2.7. That's not quite a +C. I've got an average not quite a +B.
Her birthday was a little more than seven months ago, or rather will be in five months. Christmas in four.
She only got a new piano teacher. She's also playing the (MY! I fucking started playing and now she's got MY instrument) violin. Now she can go and start playing a third instrument?
She's behaving like a troll most of the time! Her outfit is almost whorish, doesn't agree with her unless she loses about twenty kilos and she's only thirteen. And she's ordering things on the internet with money that isn't hers, only situated on a bank account that may be labled with her name, or even perhaps only our last name.

Let's sum it up: I got about the same amount of money for my birthday my sister got for her crappy school report?
Or rather: I got about the same amount of money for my school report as my sister who's a grades are worse than mine who for the first time in years have really improved, leaving NOTHING for my birthday?
Or rather: My sister can do WHAT she wants, play the bitch the whole fucking day and still gets what she wants?
FUCK! I'm leaving!

True, my pocket money went up 10 bucks a month. But I guess my sister'll get a similiar raise.
Of course, my driving licence costed 999 bucks so far and there can be easily another 200 coming up in that matter. But that was *planned*.
My mother saved for it for some years. There was no surprise that this would come.
The E-Bass is a total surprise.

I mailed my Dad and we had a day with intensive mail-contact. I also mentioned my plans for my computer and he replied that he was sorry and that he couldn't help me with that. There is a little problem with arranging the money for him right now because things are a bit expensive right now. I don't want to get mean, but he didn't have to adopt two more children, did he?
Anyway, I didn't expect any help from him and I got 250 bucks for my 17th birthday from him. That's okay.

For christmas my sister and I'll get the diving equipement part I so we can start in March or something. The whole equipement will cost about 400 bucks. Persistent little figure, isn't it?
Anyway, I think I'll cancel my participation.

Man, am I really the only one of the two of us trying to be at least a bit modest? I'm not talking about my sister stealing my money years ago, that's a different story. I'm talking about her not looking left and right and never thinking twice if the reward she gets suits the things she does! Or is this really only me seeing it that distorted because right now I'm in this postition?
It makes me sick!
 
 
melancholy
Bastards of Bodom
melancholy
 
 
möhrchen
08 September 2006 @ 03:03 pm
Man, I don't get it.
At first I got the Peg-Con Ticket for my birthday which is about 200 bucks. Then my Mum gave me 500 bucks additionally. I thought, wow. That must include a lot of money for my quite good school report.
Now, when the Con was canceled I thought: "Okay. Mum'll get the money for the ticket, including the money for the hotel (60 bucks) I paid from my own money. It's only fair."
Hey, it's fair 'cause it's still 440 for my birthday and that is more than what I usually got at the most.
Now. Today is when it became unfair.
My sister got an E-Bass. I don't know the exact price, but I overheard my Mum saying something along the lines of at least 400 for the thing.
Great. I knew that if my sister got a D or better in Latin in her school report this semester she'd get such a thing.
BUT...
First of all she's got a F in Latin.
Second of all she's got a grade point average of about 2.7. That's not quite a +C. I've got an average not quite a +B.
Her birthday was a little more than seven months ago, or rather will be in five months. Christmas in four.
She only got a new piano teacher. She's also playing the (MY! I fucking started playing and now she's got MY instrument) violin. Now she can go and start playing a third instrument?
She's behaving like a troll most of the time! Her outfit is almost whorish, doesn't agree with her unless she loses about twenty kilos and she's only thirteen. And she's ordering things on the internet with money that isn't hers, only situated on a bank account that may be labled with her name, or even perhaps only our last name.

Let's sum it up: I got about the same amount of money for my birthday my sister got for her crappy school report?
Or rather: I got about the same amount of money for my school report as my sister who's a grades are worse than mine who for the first time in years have really improved, leaving NOTHING for my birthday?
Or rather: My sister can do WHAT she wants, play the bitch the whole fucking day and still gets what she wants?
FUCK! I'm leaving!

True, my pocket money went up 10 bucks a month. But I guess my sister'll get a similiar raise.
Of course, my driving licence costed 999 bucks so far and there can be easily another 200 coming up in that matter. But that was *planned*.
My mother saved for it for some years. There was no surprise that this would come.
The E-Bass is a total surprise.

I mailed my Dad and we had a day with intensive mail-contact. I also mentioned my plans for my computer and he replied that he was sorry and that he couldn't help me with that. There is a little problem with arranging the money for him right now because things are a bit expensive right now. I don't want to get mean, but he didn't have to adopt two more children, did he?
Anyway, I didn't expect any help from him and I got 250 bucks for my 17th birthday from him. That's okay.

For christmas my sister and I'll get the diving equipement part I so we can start in March or something. The whole equipement will cost about 400 bucks. Persistent little figure, isn't it?
Anyway, I think I'll cancel my participation.

Man, am I really the only one of the two of us trying to be at least a bit modest? I'm not talking about my sister stealing my money years ago, that's a different story. I'm talking about her not looking left and right and never thinking twice if the reward she gets suits the things she does! Or is this really only me seeing it that distorted because right now I'm in this postition?
It makes me sick!
 
 
melancholy
melancholy
Bastards of Bodom
 
 
möhrchen
I simply don't get it!
I've bought some books on ebay. Bought them on Sunday, filled out the forms for money order on Monday and on Tuesday the money had been sent. I maked the books as paid on ebay.
On Wednesday I received feedback telling me the book had been sent. I believe her.

BUT...!
I've not received ONE book so far!

So, in that case of the one feedback it might be the postal service who's just so slow.
But the other three are... *argh!*
They could at least give some feedback!
If I've received my part of the deal - and money is the part of the deal they get - I give feedback, don't I?

Perhaps it's stupid to be upset about a couple of books, but I really wanted to have them and I've spent relatively much money on them - money I could have used elsewhere, too. And I really could use something to read that isn't connected to school.
Should none of the books have arrived by next Monday I'll write those three ebayers a note asking if and when they've sent the books.

,>_,> *angrytears*
 
 
angry
angry
Evanescence - Missing
 
 
möhrchen
I simply don't get it!
I've bought some books on ebay. Bought them on Sunday, filled out the forms for money order on Monday and on Tuesday the money had been sent. I maked the books as paid on ebay.
On Wednesday I received feedback telling me the book had been sent. I believe her.

BUT...!
I've not received ONE book so far!

So, in that case of the one feedback it might be the postal service who's just so slow.
But the other three are... *argh!*
They could at least give some feedback!
If I've received my part of the deal - and money is the part of the deal they get - I give feedback, don't I?

Perhaps it's stupid to be upset about a couple of books, but I really wanted to have them and I've spent relatively much money on them - money I could have used elsewhere, too. And I really could use something to read that isn't connected to school.
Should none of the books have arrived by next Monday I'll write those three ebayers a note asking if and when they've sent the books.

,>_,> *angrytears*
 
 
angry
angry
Evanescence - Missing
 
 
möhrchen
I simply don't get it!
I've bought some books on ebay. Bought them on Sunday, filled out the forms for money order on Monday and on Tuesday the money had been sent. I maked the books as paid on ebay.
On Wednesday I received feedback telling me the book had been sent. I believe her.

BUT...!
I've not received ONE book so far!

So, in that case of the one feedback it might be the postal service who's just so slow.
But the other three are... *argh!*
They could at least give some feedback!
If I've received my part of the deal - and money is the part of the deal they get - I give feedback, don't I?

Perhaps it's stupid to be upset about a couple of books, but I really wanted to have them and I've spent relatively much money on them - money I could have used elsewhere, too. And I really could use something to read that isn't connected to school.
Should none of the books have arrived by next Monday I'll write those three ebayers a note asking if and when they've sent the books.

,>_,> *angrytears*
 
 
angry
Evanescence - Missing
angry